How to Trust God When It Doesn’t Make Sense
Since my husband and I decided to homeschool the kids, a new world has opened up right in front of us. I was scared at first, and wasn’t sure how everything would come together, but I prayed for mentoring and guidance. Every time I’ve asked God for direction, a friend, or a mentor–He has delivered.
Sometimes, when I ask God for something, I simply wait and He delivers at just the right moment. However, there are times when I ask God for something, but then there is a step–a tiny (or not so tiny) leap of faith to take on my part. In my case, I asked God to bring women into my life to cultivate friendships with. God can bring those people into my life, but He’s not going to message them or call them up to invite them for coffee. I needed to reach out of my comfort zone, or be available to reach out to.
A Leap of Faith
As soon as I decided to homeschool the kids, I dove into prep work. I researched my face off, gathered curriculum, created a schedule, and reached out to others for resources. I had to make space in our home, organize, and reorganize. None of this comes naturally to me. I’m naturally disorganized, reserved, and admittedly shy at times. However, since I took the first step, I have met so many people who have come alongside to support me as friends, mentors, and prayer warriors. I asked God for a community, and He has been faithful to deliver what I needed, just when I needed it.
At the beginning of our homeschooling journey, I felt completely overwhelmed (actually, overwhelmed is an understatement). I had NO idea what we were getting into, and I was afraid of failing my kids. However, this season of unknowing has thrust my shaky hand into my Creator’s steady palm. As I follow Him closely, one step at a time, I realize that none of this is about me–not my success, not my kids’ future, not even this journey. He promised me that His strength shows up best when I’m vulnerable and feeling inadequate. The deal is that I simply show up, then I get to watch Him flex and provide and sustain and prosper and comfort and heal and do what only He can do.
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Most recently, I have asked God to put women in my path to mentor me in various areas of my journey, including homeschooling. I felt lost, and in need of guidance. About a month ago, I visited my dad’s house. As I was leaving, a woman from a mortgage broker company arrived for a meeting with him. She noticed my four kids and shared that she had four of her own kids. When I mentioned that we homeschool, she divulged that she homeschooled her kids for 25 years. She offered her contact information, support, and guidance. I was floored by her openness and generosity. Even more so, I was amazed by God’s provision in that moment.
Each answered prayer nudges me gently onward, following breadcrumbs on the path ahead. I need these reminders of God’s faithfulness on the good days, and the days when I want to quit, pack everything up, and run away.I need these reminders of God’s faithfulness on the good days, and the days when I want to quit, pack everything up, and run away. Click To Tweet
HOW DO I TRUST GOD WHEN I CAN’T SEE WHAT’S AHEAD?
Are you more likely to put your trust in a stranger or a friend that you have known for years? Trusting God’s plan for us becomes difficult when we don’t believe His plans for us are good. We don’t believe God’s intentions toward us are good when we don’t know Him as well as we need to in order to fully trust His character. There are things that can complicate our understanding of God—preconceived ideas, past experiences, and family history. Often times, our concept of God is impacted by our relationships with our earthly parents. Preconceived notions aside–God desires a personal relationship with each of us, and He has made Himself completely accessible through Jesus Christ.
We don't believe God's intentions toward us are good when we don't know Him as well as we need to in order to fully trust His character. Click To TweetThere are a few things that have helped me develop a more intimate relationship with God so that I trust Him more:
1) Talk to Him.
Prayer is more than a string of fancy words uttered with hands folded and eyes squinted shut. Prayer can be an ongoing conversation with God. I talk to God throughout the day. At times, I do get on my knees and bow my head, but I also pray in the car, in the shower, and wherever I go. When you pray, don’t just make your request and peace out. Linger, ask Him what is on His heart, and most of all–listen to what He wants to tell you.
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 1 John 5:14
The Lord is near to all who call on Him,
to all who call on Him in truth. Psalm 145:18
2) Read His Word.
The Bible is a collection of stories along the theme of God’s creation of the universe and its inhabitants, His love for us, our rebellion against Him, and His great plan for redemption. The Bible contains so much goodness—love letters, stories of adventure and battles, and gold nuggets of wisdom that are applicable even today. His Word is one of His greatest gifts to us. Not only does He share who He is, but He also has laid out a roadmap that shows us how to live. Can you imagine trying to get close to someone you can’t see, can’t hear, and can’t touch? Fortunately, God gave us His Word so that we had a way to get to know Him.
For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Hebrews 4:12
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105
So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. Romans 10:17
3) Expect good things, including a response.
After we have talked to God and read His Word, we can then rest in the knowledge that He hears us and believe that He will act according to His will. Not necessarily according to what we want to happen, because He sees the bigger picture and knows what is best.
For God speaks again and again, though people do not recognize it. Job 33:14
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19